Life Is Not a Fairy Tale by Fantasia

Author:Fantasia [Fantasia]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Biography & Autobiography, Religion, Music, Inspirational, General
ISBN: 9781416531869
Google: zuaXngLs7OIC
Amazon: 0743282655
Publisher: Touchstone
Published: 2006-05-02T00:00:00+00:00

MY MOMENT OF

FAITH:WHAT I LEARNED

For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God.

EPHESIANS2:8

Whatever you put your mind to, you can do. When you have faith you are not supposed to worry.

When people criticize you, just keep growing and growing regardless of what they say.

You can do anything you want to.

Since they said I couldn’t,I did.

5.Keep

Your

Head Up

“You aren’t ugly,Fantasia” is what I tried to tell myself and what I felt God was saying to me deep down in my heart. But I had a hard time listenin’ to Him. Again, I wasn’t lettin’ Him in, which is the reason why I was walking around with my head hung down.

When I was younger, I didn’t listen to my inner voice. I just felt so bad about myself that I couldn’t really hear anything that wasn’t negative, so God’s message of encouragement and love were not getting through. I spent most of my life believin’ I was ugly. I would look in the mirror and see my big ole’ lips, my dark skin, and how skinny I was and that made me miserable most of the time.

To be honest, I have always had low self-esteem. I would look at my flat chest and compare myself to all the other girls and I would kick my clothes across the floor out of my frustration. The frustration inside me felt like something that was going to rupture and make me bust my gut or somethin’. It was a feeling that just wouldn’t go away. I was able to fight this nagging sensation that felt like a pit at the bottom of my stomach when I was with my family or watching TV or singing a song to Zion. Whenever I was with Zion, I always felt like it was all OK. That was the rare time that I was able to keep my head up. Being with Zion let me forget all of my worries and problems. The fact that I never felt like I had enough to give her disappeared when I could see that being with her was what she needed the most. When you are a mother you have an unusual sense of lifelong love that no other relationship can ever beat. Zion looks at me with child’s love, which never ever changes. It is the same way I look at her with mommy’s love. Zion is always a beautiful sight for my tired eyes. She never looks bad to me. When she is crying or sick or swollen or poutin’, she is always beautiful. I feel her looking at me with that same admiration and life-or-death love. Every child thinks that their mommy is beautiful, even if their mommy isme.

I remember those moments when Zion was asleep and I was alone with myself with nothin’ to do. I remember how bad it felt to have this face and these lips and know that they weren’t going anywhere and that I was stuck with them for the rest of my life.

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